Bible Reading

Topic for the week: Bible Reading.

Normally, when a discussion like this comes up, my biggest fear is coldness, analytical-ness, arrogance. I know stuff, I think quickly, I process quickly.

I am bad at Bible reading, and I tend to read for purpose (Bible Study, preaching, essay), and not for food.

My life has been difficult recently; I am a full-time carer twice over, whilst trying to keep my College work ticking over, and for once in my life, I can justifiably think to myself, I am too busy. My conscience, for once, is not burning.

But in this time of personal turmoil, I find God doing interesting things in my life. I actually find God opening a bigger hole in my life. I find myself thirstier, hungrier for God’s word.

This morning, I desperately wanted to be at Chapel on time, but by the time I had dealt with my son, my wife had woken up, and I had forgotten to put out breakfast and the like, and by the time I got to college, I had missed 15 minutes of the sermon.

And I found, apart from my frustration at not being on time, I feel desperate to hear from God’s word, and even the small amount I heard I drank in eagerly.

I have been intending to read through Romans in one sitting; not simply because I have an essay to write on Romans, but to soak in it, to become more familiar with it, so that the necessity of essay writing will force me to interact with God’s word; read it without glossing over it.

And I haven’t found a chance to carve out several hours to sit down, and I long for it. I yearn for it. It tears me up!