Essay-writing

You'd think that by this stage in my college career, I'd have it all figured out. Essay-writing is tricky business, fraught with procrastination, and I wonder if the Carsons of the world, the paper-publishing professors of academia continue to struggle and play minesweeper instead of writing their papers.

My big problem is that fear no longer motivates me. I know that I'm perfectly competent enough to write a good essay. I can probably even write it at the last minute and get away with it. This brings no self-satisfaction; rather a deepening guilt that I really ought to have knocked it out of the park a few days ago, so that I can move on to other, more important things.

Instead, I've been finding addictive games to play on my phone, on my computer. Regular doses of coffee mean that I'm producing... something.